Happy Birthday Aniq!

Finally the time has come. He reached the level where all the mind and thoughts will start to grow to argue with the elders. Haha.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY Muhammad Aniq... Can't wait to be back home and kiss you, hug you like a teddy bear.

Last 2 years, at 3.00 am my dad got a call from Malaysia. It was my sister, she said she's delivered a baby boy. I was sleeping in Macau OK. Luckily our flight back was on the next day so it is not that desperately forced us to take a flight back right away. Haha

That is my lil nephew. He's a talkative boy and very very clever which make he's a dangerous boy hahaha not that dangerous, just being an exaggerate. he catch everything we speak as fast as our mind can think. He now can speak Malay, English and even Mandarin. He learnt that from a playing laptop, a birthday present from my Mom's friend.

Really impressed me yesterday when he spit those words perfectly. He not even 2 yesterday. hahah. Ok2 before I overreacted, overexcited or overwritten I should just stop and HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANIQ! Love you so much :) muah muah (Aniq's habit)

penguin

Judgmental

Human or should we call people will never be far from being judgmental. That is why we really concern about our first impression whenever you are about to put yourself on the stage. If you see kids running around here and there while barking and shouting in a train what would you first think about them? (Am I sounded like Sue Slyvester in Glee? haha) These kids are too noisy why on earth does their father just let them running and making riot here. This is not a playground Sir! That would be how we judge the situation but actually the kids' mother had just passed away and that is the only way for the kids to entertain and release them from the burden. That is why daddy let them playing around.

Haha, this is judgmental. Why do first impression important. Whenever I attend any grooming classes or talks they'll always remind us about first impression. This is because first impression is a typical judgment. What would your wear to meet your to-be parents in law? what about a job interview? Class? Formal dinner? Would you wear your lingerie out to meet your parents in law? oh hoho would you wear a bottle of perfume to impress them? No right, because you do not want them to think bad about you.

Cheesy huh. haha yeah so all I want to remind all and MYSELF it is normal for you to hate a person at first but try to be a good frienemy and you'll find out that those weaknesses in one can turn out to be something good and those good things about them can remain to be the best thing to talk upon. 

Have fun people finding your frienemy and judgmental is just an idea that you have to alert yourself to be aware and prepare for surprises. So long :)

P/S: these days, I feel like a motivator and a booster but all I know I'm neutral ('',)

Sorry is a powerful word

Today again something made me think about my pasts. They're not the good memories though. 'Sorry' made someone feel weak but the truth is that is the key of happiness. I'm dare to say that caused I'm kinda expert using the word since I think that's the best way to re-tie a friendship knot.

I ain't the pro here but expert it is. haha (does that make any differences?). I used the word "SORRY" hardly in friendship when I feel that I'm being overacted with something. Yeah serious my pasts are like mess. Really mess. Sometimes it wasn't my call but I take the blame because I care about the friendship.

So hope that YOU, YOU and YOU will try your best to confront each other and start to build a better hope. "Sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit", even it's normal for husband and wife to have misunderstanding so I bet between friends zillion much easier.

So don't be shy to use the word "SORRY" even you think it wasn't your fault because it is even better, sincere and beautiful to take the blame - give and take and DO NOT FORGET "bertepuk sebelah tangan takkan berbunyi". So stop honking to each other and start to embrace the good thing about your friendship. All the best to YOU, YOU and YOU. So long :)

P/S: Applied to myself too. haha :P

boost the inner strength

I really love how One Republic express the song that as if telling about myself. Hit me right into the chest. We tend to restrict ourselves from doing things that are beyond our comfort zone. I'm like that, kinda conservative and preservative in allowing myself to be hurt and keep myself in a box crying and complaining and even cursing alone. I don't really push 'me' to stand by my rights.

 Listen to this and you'll see how Ryan Tedder tries to give an exclamation of advice. Haha

Say (All I Need) by One Republic

Do you know where your heart is?
Do you think you can find it?
Or did you trade it for something
Somewhere better just to have it?
Do you know where your love is?
Do you think that you lost it?
You felt it so strong, but
Nothing's turned out how you wanted

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best and
Your best look
You're praying that you make it

Well, bless my soul
You're a lonely soul
Cause you won't let go
Of anything you hold

Well, all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Better than you had it
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Do you think you can find it?
Yeah, better than you had it

I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

I said I all I need
Is the air I breathe
And a place to rest
My head

Whenever the end is
Do you think you can see it?
Well, until you get there
Go on, go ahead and scream it
Just say it

It's raining in Aussie

All the best to you on the course. Go for the podium this time. InsyaAllah you'll bring a trophy back if luge voted in :)

Go Malaysia, Go Furlong

Total Eclipse of my Heart

Haha emotional... stressful. Is this some kind of test for me this week? It's really tense and tempting to study with all problems coming through along my day. Hahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahah (are this real or fake?) I smiled because I'm leaving out all those mean creatures from my life but they keep coming every tick of the clock. Woohooo.. really makes me sick and EMOTIONAL.

Problems with family, schooling, personal etc etc. they're too many to list about! So i call this week as an "eclipse" which I defined as lighted the night but do not really illuminate it. In Malay we called it 'suam-suam kuku'. Pray for the best people and one told me to make the best of what I have right now because life is short, live life to the full! He's kinda right about me. I'm actually make it worst and will always be this way. I had all the best in my life but I ruin those bit by bit and now I left with "NOTHING".

Turn around,
Every now and then I get a little bit lonely
And you're never coming round
Turn around,
Every now and then I get a little bit tired
of listening to the sound of my tears
Turn around,
Every now and then I get a little bit nervous
that the best of all the years have gone by,
Every now and then I get a little bit terrified
and then I see the look in your eyes

Turn around bright eyes,
Every now and then I fall apart
Turn around bright eyes,
Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together
We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time

I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks
I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Turn around bright eyes
Every now and then I fall apart
Turn around bright eyes
Ever now and then I fall apart

A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart
A total eclipse of the heart

TOUCHDOWN!

I'm getting really sensitive these days. Maybe there're too many things that I've gone through alone without asking people to help me. And I just don't feel right to turn to somebodies' shoulders that I rarely know or grow up with.

It's hard to stay far away from parents. Yes they are the best shoulders that I can cry on but I tend to turn to others because I don't feel good to put more burdens on theirs. Several times, I thought of living alone without any people around me so I won't get hurt or hurting others.

I have dreams and those dreams I put them in too. Never thought off leaving the town far because I want to leave my parents away just plan that to make my dream come true. I look tough yeah I know that I pretend to be cool and be happy but I'm fragile, REALLY fragile inside. I tried to put those pieces back together but they keep falling from each other. Ok that's just a metaphor! haha

I hate to be serious or sensitive with people but I just can't. I tried thousand times and the harder I tried the further I'll drift away and the harder to swim back to the shore. Wow I'm really down this time and I just couldn't care much about my surrounding and all I want to be right now is in a DARK room and keep myself alone till I'm ready to walk out from it for some light.

If possible I need a darker room than this!

Revenge

Can revenge really make us feel happy? Does it really works? But making someone suffer doesn't make your pain go away right?. Yeah experiences really told me that. It is normal as a human when we say "you'll get what you deserve", "you did that to me and why can't I?", "it's your time now, soon I'll pay that back". I used those words everytime I'm acrimonious about something to someone somebody around me.

Last night made me think does my plan is the best way to tell someone that I don't like what he /she did to me? I am a bully victim maybe because I'm too small to get a respect or too short to be seen.  hahha *pulling off my feet* I was actually an invisible in those eyes. My heart, my feeling, my privacy, my intuition those really don't exist in me aren't they? I thought of putting a revenge but not really a revenge but somekind of wake up call to make people realize, 'Hey Iffah is here, OK!'

But after wisely think and judge it with some intuition and intrinsic within me, haha. I just don't think of putting one because eventually I've gone through this for quite sometime. Not saying kinda expert but kinda immune with those and it's normal for me to be the bottom girl. I don't care because after all that has been always my place that pushes me to work hard to prove that one day I'll be a better human with better life and make them realize.

It's true people, revenge really can't make you feel happy, keeping those bad thoughts really make you feel like a dead mannequin that is waiting to be disposed off. So why burden yourself thinking of revenging. Prophet Muhammad was being bullied through out his life but he didn't put any revenges, instead he seek for Allah's help to open up his enemies' hearts. Let the Almighty does His job caused all this is His granted and He's the only power that has the right to do that.

Have a great day and God bless everyone. So long :)

I miss Glee!

 Ok, I really miss Glee right now. Watched only up to the 4th episode this new season!!!! ah, watch this sneak and peak it for now. They sang Teenage Dream ahhh love this song,,, hahah

A stressful night

Hints hints... yeah2 they are good but they're not when they are up less than 24 hours from the final. What am I suppose to do? I haven't read a single thing about well logging and now a question (20 marks) will come from there. Urgh... this is so stressful. I was not suppose to be in the final as far as I remember. So that's the weaknesses of knowing hints. We tend to take for granted on that right?

Anyway why on earth do Well logging has to be in the syllabus of Advanced Drilling Engineering? Weird huh. Oh my oh my, I don't really think that I can make that topic tonight and hope fully tomorrow I have some idea on how to fry those on the paper.

Resistivity, Gamma Ray, Sonic, Neuron and Density Logs please,,, please be easy with me tomorrow ok. I left with 2-1/2 hours to memorize those formulas and do some review on my test papers. Got no much time to spend on you. Sorry loggers. ;(

WST, bye bye

Treet.. treet... treet (typing, photostat and printer sounds) 

Alhamdulillah... yeay officially I'm done with Well Stimulation Techniques course. Wow. To be honest those questions are really familiar and as expected but I couldn't even dare to say that that was easy. Can't really rank the difficulties of the questions. All I can say I've let those to the right Above to help.

During the exam, hahah I was the first person to go out to the ladies. It was a record. I don't know why as if I had a gallon of water before the paper. hahah. while answering  the questions, the invigilator came to my table to sign the attendance paper. It's normal right during exam the only thing that in our minds are how to answer this question. But this kind invigilator (he's really kind) came to me and said 'Nice signature'. Haha I blurred ok all I can think was 'Oh, thank you' with a smile. Haha that never happen to me.  I called that as 'take a break' moment for me.

So I left with 3 sub questions that I really am not sure with the answers. I read those but they don't seem to be locked and buried in my brain. So I start looking around, the floor, the ceiling, hahah can't think of any idea actually.

Whatever it is. I'm pretty sure there'll be no more well stimulation subject for me and NOW my head can start to be cracked off with all the equations and formula for Advanced Drilling Engineering. Wish me luck and have a great nice day to all. So long :)

Evolution

Alert... Alert... Alert! Those caterpillars are about to form themselves into pupae. Haaaaaa... what am I going to do? How to kill those before they evolve to be mean and nasty butterflies in my stomach? Oh no! soon soon, they just can't wait to be butterflies and I can't face them.

In less than 15 hours from now, those pupae will transform and all I can do is to let them fly freely in me before I really can kill them after 12 pm on Thursday. Urgh, this time I know that those butterflies will be bigger than usual.

All my nerves says so and they are pumping the blood more rapid than usual. I can feel it from the tip of my toe up straight to my head. Yeah nervous NERVOUS nervous. Pray for the best Iffah that's all I left with now

Lucky Charm

Urm, something just came through my mind. Haha today I called the my day the 'quiet before the storm'. It means that today will be a peace day for me because tomorrow and the day after tomorrow will be horribly hectic. So, I'm planning of enjoying myself with some 'refreshing' Well Stimulation notes and praying that tomorrow all my lucky charms will be with me in the hall to help me with those questions. 

Yeah lucky charm I remembered a cereal brand called 'LUCKY CHARM' for real people. I'm not really sure about those brand in Malaysia but I had those back in 1990's. hahah see how old am I? 

*censored* but it's cute

To be honest I don't really believe in luck except if we define luck as rizq. Rizq depends on our efforts instead of luck utterly and solely. hehehe I don't want to give lecture but oh yeah just remembered a thing, I did ask my lecturer on those terrible marks he gave, those answers of mine are actually the correct one. hahah Man, I love it! really really really love it. I lost 7 marks just for nothing. JUST LIKE THAT! *pap* knocking my head on wall. hahah

Ok2 pals, till next post. Bye So long :)

We're like magnet

You have the north pole and so do I. So we'll always pushing each other away and will never ever going to be attracted to each other. SO WHY BOTHER?

You're not perfect either. You made mistakes too!

I hate you because I was so naive to put hopes and allow myself to be in that dream. So long to YOU!

I'm such a pathetic

Pretend myself to not to care about people is hurting and really hard. I forced myself to hold to all my promises even those are made years away back but for me it’s still a promise and I’ll do my best to not to smash it. I’m a liar if I say I have stop thinking about the past and my mistakes and I’m a liar too if I say I don’t care about you anymore.

I can't stop thinking about it and I really wanna end this now but I don't really sure am I really ready to face it. Haha I know I'm such a pathetic but I just feel good about it because this is where the challenge comes in right? Analogically, when you have macaroons and you know you mom says 'Don't eat till I'm back' and you promised to her you'll wait for her. It's torturing but you know if you eat those you'll broke your promise to your mom and that is sinful so you keep yourself busy pretending that you don't care about the those delicious cookies. 

You see when your mom reached home, and saw you're waiting for her, isn't that will make her feel happy? What if you ate those and left some for her, she'll eat alone all by herself. Isn't that is sad if you're the mother? Urm actually that is exactly what I felt whenever I tried to brake my promises. I can't stop trying to brake it in any ways but the harder I try the scarier I would be. So at the end, I make myself busy and forget those stupid promises I made (Lesson Learnt: Never ever let your feeling conquer your mind when you're making any decisions/promises), even I keep falling into pieces holding on those. All I care is what will 'YOU' feel later not mine. hehehe :)

Am I making any sense here? Haha just answer it 'NO'. I'm tired bubbye off for nap heheh.. So long ('',)

Tik Tok Tik Tok

It's almost my first final paper for this semester (35 hours to go). Wow unbelievable. Time runs really fast and it changes the hour without we realizing it. Ok, actually I'm bored and tired reading all this economics terms ahhhh so just not me again! hahha

Just dropping by to share some gtalk captions/statuses by some friends:

(1) Holding an anger is like grasping a hot coal with the intent of throwing to others but we're the one gets burned

I was so triggered with this caption because I never thought of throwing a hot coal to someone actually. All I wanna do when I'm angry is to throw a leaf to that person or else I just draw his face on a paper, crumple it and straight to the dustbin. hahah I'm still sane from doing that irrational actions haha :P

(2) When the grass is greener

Oh yeah, that reminds me to "california girl" by Kate Perry. To be honest I really wanna see the grasses in brown or purple. Green is common already to me so I bet different grass colors really can make my day and bet me it can be a good tourist attraction

(3) Busy caused it's final but you can disturb me

Ok, this statement is common for those people who desperately need some attraction. Lack of Intention Syndrome. This is very critical because the guy/girl will actually talk non-stop whenever one buzz their gtalk. 

Haha, ok people I'm just doing my things no offense. Just for fun and good entertainment for me especially those really enlighten and illuminate my night. Evening people. So long :)

I need LUCK

A massacre just so to happen in UTP! ahhhhh.. hahah ok yeah something like that had happenned to me actually. But I'm not talking about how the lecturer tried to 'kill' most of his students. It's just not fair I think because the answer is not wrong and the markings was totally based on LUCK (you had full marks even your answer is wrong and vice versa).

So last night made me think, what if this thing happen in my final exams? What if the lecturer mark those wrongly? Will he change the marks for us? Haha I bet most of my classmates are in the same page with me on this. But whatever it is things happened and I have no power to amend those and I have no interest anymore in standing on my right to fight for more than 10 marks from him. Hahah weird action by Iffah this time.

Ok, whenever exams coming, people will either say 'All the best', 'Do your best' and 'GOOD LUCK'. I guess I would prefer the third wish from everyone this semester. Haha caused all it matters LUCK will help me with my result. Sometime this made me think 'Am I acrimonious because he marked it wrongly and that is unfair or am I acrimonious because it's bad for my result?'. Told yeah I'm weird isn't it. Those are the same issues but I interpreted those differently. You see if he marked it wrongly and stiffly reject any corrections since he sent those marks already, doesn't that decision is against he's ethic and norm as a lecturer? but when I'm a bit pissed (not really pissed actually this time :P) because of my result, that is just to concern me to get an 'A' so I'm upset on the other side of my shoulder. Haha I'm walking around the bushes now

Whatever it is, I've decided to just let things go and pray for the best caused after all, Allah made him to grade those wrongly and hope he'll open up his heart and listen to his students in the future. As to conclude my futile post 'I need LUCK for my Gas Field and Well Stimulation papers, yeah LUCK!' I NEED MIRACLES, come to mama.... hahah So Long people :)

Branson will be in a red skirt

Finally, this is like the 100th times I loaded the posting page. Man , really can't stand this snail internet connection. Ok, so before anything happen to the line I better write something to loosen up some tense and stretch my fingers after hours of reading. haha

So, something good to talk about this week would be the battle between the CEO of Air Asia, Dato' Tony Fernandes and his opponent Sir Richard Branson, the CEO of Virgin Airlines. Since the F1 had just lowered down its curtain, officially the deal between this two men starts. So early of the F1 season, both of them had made a deal if their teams lose to another, the losing man will have to be the fly attendant in his opponent flight. Haha I thought only kids will do this kind of dealing and challenging but there are oldies people that are still into this kind of 'humiliating' games I would call.

Just to happen Dato' Tony won the deal as Lotus team beaten Sir Branson's, the Virgin F1 team to be in the 19th in the team standing which now yelling at Sir Branson to get ready for his first attempt of attending people in an Air Asia charity flight  from Kuala Lumpur to London. As to honor Branson, he will have the opportunity to pick on the charity body.

Haha prepare your suit Sir caused you'll be wearing a red skirt, some make up, and I guess with your beard and mustache on. All the best to him! I hope soon there'll be pictures of him attending those lucky people in the flight. hahah have a great day people, So long :)

Sir Branson will not be in this sexy body at all ;P

Takbir in UTP

Allahuakbar Allahuakbar Allahuakbar, Lailahaillahu Allahuakbar, Allahuakbar Walillailham

Once in my lifetime I'll be celebrating the EidulAdha in UTP. Huwa!!! I need my mom and dad on the celebration days. Who's gonna make some rendang or ketupat or good foods for me tomorrow? Ya Allah, let this be the last time I have to do this in UTP please3. What will it feel to celebrate Eid far from our families? I bet some of you have experiences on that and I believe it needs courage and determination to feel it right.

Whatever it is I'm still happy that at least I have the chance to experience Eid with friends here in UTP and they're like a family to me already. So in 5 hours time, we can start congregate the takbir and I'll be doing it alone tonight but tomorrow will do it together with all the UTPians in the mosque.

When we say this is the time when Prophet Ibrahim (Abraham) was called to sacrifice he's 1st son, Prophet Ismail (Ishmael), maybe this time around, it's my turn to do my sacrifice. So I'm getting cool with it and hope for the best. After all, we are the slaves of God and He created us with reasons and gave us everything we have now so it has been our ultimate priority to surrender ourselves to Him. :) This is my sacrifice this year, hehe >.<

Eventhough tears can't really show how sad and touched I am but I know that my family is having the same feeling too about me celebrating Eid in UTP. Soon, I have to learn to be independent and letting their hands off slowly to chase my own dreams and all I care is that they will always remember me here and pray for my best. Hahah it's getting moist here. Man, ok people whatever it is I really wanna wish everyone "SELAMAT HARI RAYA EIDULADHA". Have a great/safe journey back to your hometowns and Happy Holiday all! ('',) So long~

Lets recite it together

NAMES and FACES are my main confusions

Hahaha... I just finished watching the 'Date night' so I was so shocked to see the guy acted as the D.A Frank Creenshaw looked exactly like the 'Kung Fu Master' who suspected to commit suicide in a hotel in Thailand back in 2009. All the way watching the movie I kept asking myself 'am I missed something? I thought this is a new movie but how on earth can a dead man be in this movie?' Ok people I was totally out of my mind. haha

After the movie, I locked my eyes at the cast list and saw 'William Fichtner' and I googled his name. HAHAHAHA! I got the wrong man OK. The man that killed himself was David Carradine. So my concern here 'am I really that confuse with those faces?' caused to be honest I always confuse with people faces and my sisters will not to forget to laugh at me whenever I get the wrong person. For instance Bruce Willis and Tom Hanks when I watched the Angel and Demon then this Mr Fitchtner' and Carradine, Nick Cage and Adam Sandler and plenty more.

Sometimes whenever I talked about someone, other peoples' faces I'll imagine. hahah what a funny brain I have here. I think maybe because my brain is not synchronize with my mouth, just forget it :P. Ok2 keep on laughing hahaha whatever it is I'm kinda happy with this because this is me the real me so consider this as my daily jokes. oh yeah sorry if I say 'I remember your face but what's you name?' because I really meant that. Haha bye people have a great day and sleep tight. So long :)

see what I meant? haha

Paranoid

Defined as 'afraid or suspicious of other people and believing that they are trying to harm you, in a way that is not reasonable' or 'suffering from a mental illness in which you wrongly believe that other people are trying to harm you or that you are very important'

These are exactly what I feel now! What is happening to me? Why are all the bad thoughts rant through my mind. I don't need them the only thing I need is to reminisce good memories to boost my strength and motivate me for my finals.

 

Have you ever experience the same problem as mine? How did you turn yourself back from those and what are the main contributors of this bad adjective?
At a point I felt timid and all I can think is people hate me and they are trying to isolate me out. Sometimes I have explanations on anything that I do and did but they seem to be ignored and couldn't care less about me.

 

When things get worst, I can feel the nerves in body telling that I'm an invisible. Nobody sees me and I'm not exist around them. WHY? WHY do I feel this way? It's so disturbing and frequently this feeling caused me to back off and let myself to be the prey. This is not me, I dont like to give up without effort but is it because scared of being ignored or hated I change the real me?

Please bring back the real IFFAH GARIB!

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Ivy League

When talking about Ivy League automatically those high-class universities ran through out minds; Columbia, Yale, Brown, Princeton, Cornell, Dartmouth, Pennsylvania and Harvard. Wow... It's a like golden ball if I ever gonna get the offer to be in one of those universities. Haha people joking, never dreamed even once, OK! hahah

So I just so to know these great names in Gossip Girl. Most of the American seems to be worked very hard to be accepted in one of these prestigious colleges. Haha. But that wouldn't be my concern. Just browsed through the 2010 world university ranking and guess what UTP is not even in the top 200 list. EXPECTED! Whatever it is Yale will be my choice of the league since it is in the top 10 before Indiana (I think my aunt graduated from here :P) and Purdue University.

1  Stanford University	United States
2  Massachusetts Institute of Technology	United States
3  Universidad Nacional Autónoma de México	Mexico
4  University of California, Berkeley	United States
5  Peking University	China
6  Michigan State University	United States
7  Yale University	United States
8  Indiana University	United States
9  Purdue University	United States
10  Duke University	United States

I'm stunned to see Oxford in the 16th rank caused I thought all this while Malaysian talked mostly on Stanford, Oxford and Cambridge. Ok, I'm hitting my sack but remember friends, university is just a place to gain knowledge but to be a real person it is about our attitudes. You don't have to be in Stanford to be the best among the best. Most important thing is just try our best and try to strike for the best in our life. So long :) BEST! BEST! BEST! hahah (I need a psychologist NOW)

UTP with its internet connection

Wow, this is my third post of the day. hahah to be honest I'm kinda bored reading this friction materials for final exams. ok so blog is the best space to spent on hahah I had this video that I really wanna watch unfortunately, it has been already 2 days I tried to load and buffer the video. It's kinda frustrating badly because it really tested my patience to keep on refresh the page and wait it to load.

should just cut the cable instead of smashed the innocent desktop

The management really have to do something with this problem because I can say that this poor internet service experienced since the first year I was in this college (2006) yet I think it's getting worst because now I have no DC++ where I can spend at least an hour to download several movies and files. That WAS the good thing about UTP once upon a time.

I know there are some poeple will argue on the effectiveness of the study with good internet in front of us but that doesn't confirm one will spend most of the time doing futile activities because with internet it can make one a global thinker and information searcher. Those videos in Youtube can release some tense and open up the young generation mind to think out of the box.

where does this creature get an electricity supply?

Facebook, yeay that it the main concern even the parents encountered these days. Parents start to create an account and put eyes (spying) on their kids' progress and social affair activities. Haha but with that social pages, we the students who live far from our parents or families can communicate with together economically. Isn't this has a point? :P

connect people and help us to run faster?? ahha

Ok, folks that's all hahaha it feels really great to write and share with people. So long :) poor you lil Pluto 

PLUTO: sorry I didn't mean to send those spam emails

How to remove eyebags?

Eyebags/black circles/puffy eyes those are the terms that we use to define the tired-eyes look on our faces. The longer you let it there, the darker and bigger it will be. So, before thing gets even worst, try some of these remedies:

(1) Stick a couple of spoon in a freezer at night and in the morning, hold them under your eyes for a minute

(2) Put raw potato/cucumber/tomato slices under your eyes and make sure those cover all the bag areas

(3) Apply a cool-wet tea bag on your eyes

(4) Soak some cotton pads in milk and leave those pads on the eyes for few minutes

(5) Use some eye gels

However, people say 'an ounce of prevention is better than a pound of cure', so to avoid those bags from being prominent on the face, check out several preventions below. Hope they are helpful enough:

(1) Get a good sleep

(2) Slightly elevate your head when you're sleeping

(3) Avoid booze and salty food

 (4) Use moisturizer daily

Feel free to try those and have fun with it! Happy testing people, so long :)

Glory or Gory?

Soon... Soon... Soon.... It's 9 days away from my final papers! Hereby, I declare a war on 22nd Nov till 29th Nov in UTP. Will it be a glory or gory this time around? Argh... This semester is too stiff and fragile for me. I want to hit the first G but I barely spend time to avoid the second G. Am I starting to feel bored with my student life or I just can't wait to be in the industry?


Ok, I can still see some hopes in my Gas Field Engineering and Well Stimulation papers but not for the Advanced Drilling and Petroleum Economics courses. I don't even see a spot of light in Petroleum Economics. It is important to know about it but I just can't absorb those hurdle rate, sensitivity analysis urgggghhh that is so just not me. Advanced Drilling war will be tough I know it but I have to work really hard to win that and defeat my enemies (questions) haha.


Before I officially officiate my study week, here is just a good and releasing video to be watched upon to burst some stress especially to those having tests or exams. All the best people and have a clean and fair war in the hall. So long :)

sorry can't attached the video, to watch
click here

God of Knowledge

What happen when a student is believed to be brilliant and do not make mistakes in his study life? Yes, a God of Knowledge. I have a classmate who I now called him the God of Knowledge. Whatever he says, he does, he talks everything are swallowed blindly by people around him. For me, it is too funny and I just can't stop laughing whenever I called him the God of Knowledge. God does not omit sins and He's the creator, He knows every single things that go round this world. So if people believe that he made no sins, then we should just call him the God, right?

I would say most of my classmate praise him like he is some kind of miracle that is sent to this earth to help them in they studies. I am dare enough to say this because I was the victim of this 'miracle' several times and yesterday was the peak moment of everything. I'm not jealous with his knowledge but whenever he says the solution is wrong, IT MEANS WRONG and there is no even a single human being trying to argue or spat his idea. All they do is copy his work and submit to the lecturer. Then, why on earth do they have to attend those lectures, just stay in the room and wait for his solution. It is so disturbing because people tend to be dishonest in their works and the main concern is just to get an A with no sincerity and efforts and eventually it happen to my group my group mate believe in him (who is in a different group) and claimed our group assignment was wrong.

Back in 2008, I had this assignment that I did all by myself alone. So when people asked for solution, I explained my workings. After couple of days, I had an email by others saying that my solution is wrong so to clarify thing, I asked them how do they know it was wrong, they answered 'because *****'s answer is different from yours'. What the heck is that? Just because my answers is different doesn't means it's wrong so I met my lecturer for some opinions on the working and he told me, mine is correct and maybe there are several methods applicable to compute the solution. So, what would you conclude from that? He's the God of Knowledge for them isn't it? Since that I just don't feel like sharing my solutions with others and that makes me a better person because I can survive with no one helps and I felt sincere in my studies.

Before dropping off, I just what to remind myself and everyone, Humans are humans, no one can be God because we make mistakes and imperfect. Those mistakes are to be the best teacher in teaching us to be humble and trust in ourselves. No matter how high you jump, you'll fall back to the ground and that is just how life works. Learn to be independent and use your brain to think! Thanks for your time so long :)~

My lil nephew

I just can't resist to ignore whatever my lil nephew asked me to do. Argh miss him like crazy. Today when I talked to him, he asked me to come home. 'Ateh, balik ye Ateh'. Oh, I can't say no and I just wish that I can blink my eyes and travel back NOW! hahah 'Gelakkan Ateh, haha'

This boy is a precious and I really love him. Yes Aniq, I'll be back soon and promise it will be December to celebrate your birthday together and bring some chocolates for you. heheh :) Muah XOXO

Kellogg's Rice Krispies® Treat

Westerns make their own rice krispies at home! Isn't that wonderful and that just gave me some new projects once I'm back in KL. haha. Do you still remember this snack long time ago in Malaysia? I grew up with this snack man, so I will never gonna forget it. I still remember last couple of month I questioned my sister about this treats. I wonder where those stocks in Malaysia because the markets just stop selling those and I really want them back into my pocket.

When I was in primary school, it's like a force that made my hand to keep few packets in my school bag and have them as my snacks during break. The advertisements on busses really stuck permenatly in my head. REMEMBER: the krispies treat is being pulled away with the yummy-looked sticky thing? Haha. Wooooow irresistible. Unfortunately now I have to make my own instead of buy-and-eat haha

Anyway, this is how you can make your own rice krispies treat, try this because I'm telling you, YOU'LL LOVE IT! haha

What you need:

3 tablespoon of butter

10 oz. of marshmallow/4 cups of miniature marshmallow

6 cups of Kellogg's Rice Kriespies Cereal

How to prepare:

1. In large saucepan melt butter over low heat. Add marshmallows and stir until completely melted. Remove from heat.

2. Add KELLOGG'S RICE KRISPIES cereal. Stir until well coated.

rice krispies

3. Using buttered spatula or wax paper evenly press mixture into 13 x 9 x 2-inch pan coated with cooking spray or mold any shapes that you want while it's warm

4. Cool

5. Pooooooffffff... this is what you gonna have hahah (with good packing and authorization from Kellogg)

Have fun with it and so long :)

Links: http://www.ricekrispies.com/products/rice-krispies-treats-original.aspx

Handy Manny Cake

Since it's gonna be my lil nephew birthday soon, my sister puts some thoughts of making him a 3D handy manny toolbox cake. Ok, I know it sounds ridiculous and how on earth are you making those characters? urm, so I browsed through several sites and blogs on that handy manny cake. Oh my Oh my, it's not easy OK but I felt in love with some toolboxes. Have a look at those pictures that I ranked based on my own personal decision. I bet you'll love them too. :)

1st prize

I love how the baker can make the toolbox perfectly using rice krispies treats for the structure (I miss those krispies treats auuuuummmm) hahah plus the cake was put on top of another cake Imagine how big the cake is.. hahah love it love it! But she left Mr Rusty (the wrench), Mr Squeeze (the plier) and Mr Flicker (the flashlight) out.


2nd prize

This is a darn cute cake too with prefect 3D tools the only thing that the baker left out was the Handy Manny character itself. He's a cute little dude and please he should be there on the cake. haha Oh yeah one more thing Mr Flicker. haha

3rd prize

Look at this messed up cake. Handy Harry really needs to rearrange all his tools back into the box before those tools jump of from the table. Haha :)

Yeay, so people have fun doing and baking or browsing some good cake design for your love ones and so long :)

Breakfast

It has been almost 3 days I had my breakfast as early as 8.30 am. Yeah it's unusual for me in UTP haha but it is all because I wake up early for my new morning routine (just started for 3 days anyway), JOGGING. On the first day, I went with Hani and we only managed to round the lake once and most of the time we stopped and play those poles and exercises facilities piled about 200 m away from each other. So less time were spent for jog on that day! haha

Yesterday was not really a productive day eventhough it's the second attempt, we tried our best to jog we actually jog more than quarter of the track, unfortunately, no sweat! Ok, am I trying to prove that sweat symbolize the effectiveness of the jogging? haha my bad. Any how that was really weird because there's sunlight on the second day unlike the day before today but we didn't soak like hell.

This morning, the weather was very good exactly like the first day and there are Hirundinidae (burung layang-layang) flying low with groups of stock (bangau) sunbathing over the lake bank. Wow isn't this sounded like a literature. haha Back to our business, so today we broke our personal records with 2 rounds and most of the time we jogged! It's a good improvement and we should do it frequently.

As usual, after tired and thirsty, our tummies start to make the annoying sound that as if they're saying "we're empty, we need something to digest!" so yeah we headed to the nearest cafe and had our normal breakfast. I bet people will start to ask why is the post title is 'breakfast' yet the only thing that I typed is on the jogging activity. OK people I was actually thinking of having a pancake for my breakfast. I missed my sister's pancakes (she's really a good maker I'm telling you haha) so the only thing that I get for my breakfast in UTP is the Kueh Teow Goreng and Maggi Goreng and that is why I introduce you with my new routine just to cover up my starve. Haha...

YUMMY!!!!

That's all friends. So long :)

P/S: Reference for Hirundinidae and stock

Melancholic, am I?

Some people say that being sad is normal and making it as an illness is not a good lifestyle but how am I suppose to do if I just cant leave out those diseases? Am I a melancholy?

I found a good reading material on the Melancholic personality traits, check yourself whether are you in this category or not: link here

Personality Strengths of the Melancholy

Deep and thoughtful
Analytical
Serious and purposeful
Genius prone
Talented and creative
Artistic or musical
Appreciative of beauty
Sensitive to others
Self-sacrificing
Conscientious
Idealistic
As a parent, sets high standards and wants everything done right.
As a homemaker, keeps everything in order.
As an employee, schedule oriented and hard working.
A list maker and keeper.

Personality Weaknesses of the Meloncholy

Easily offended
Can get too caught up in details
Doesn't do well with change

Struggles with insecurity
Tends towards depression

However, melancholic traits tend to dwell towards the negative attributes. So identify yourself and try to make the worst to better. Effort is more important that surrender without try. Have a nice day So long :)

Winter in UTP

Buuuuuuurrrrrr!!!! It's winter again in UTP. hahaha... Nights are freezing and days are warm with dim sunlight. Last 2 nights were the best night ever in this semester. I love this weather and I just hope that it will always be this way through my balance months in UTP.

The breeze and cool climate really make me feel sleepy and I can't hold my eyes after 11 pm. Why? Why? Why? Urgh,,,, maybe this is the best weather to hibernate but I love the cool feeling and even hardly to sweat unlike the usual temperature. So it is true after all when we called this place as Toronto! haha it's not a big deal right saying that my university is in Toronto, Malaysia.

Yeah talking about hibernation, that answers why the polar bears hibernate during the winter and I feel exactly like one now hahah. Ok2, people having test this evening. Wish me luck and have a great day and sweet dreams :) So long!

Illumination

In a day there are several things that illuminate and shine our day, unfortunately we are too blind to see those  shining stars in front of us. My dad used to say 'God will always confirm your prayers, it is just the matter how you're accepting those. Some people missed those and some poeple grab those gifts but eventually they hold it too loose and let those prayers go.'  He's true after all because at a point I think God approved my wishes but I'm too tight and too blind to see them and hold them too hard till I brake those into pieces of glasses.

I eventually gave up with myself in trying harder because nothing has changed as I wanted. I tried to close my eyes and speak to myself that things will be back as normal as I used to live in, I know everytime I open my eyes, I'll crush another dreams. Yesterday I dreamt on something. I hardly believe in bad dreams they're just dreams but I'm kinda relief this morning after waking up because I know every dreams I had I felt the existent of Allah in me. I shouldn't have give up on myself because once I do, it's like I'm giving up on Him too. So, I know Allah is helping me and watching me all the time. He's been there for me everytime I need Him and He's the only One that will never leave me till the end of my life. I love you, Allah and thanks for every single breath that I take to embrace the moments in this temporary world.

NEVER LOSE HOPE ON HIM BECAUSE HE'S ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU

So long :)

 

Love is on its way

Young hearts, I believe that we are not far from becoming who we truly are, LOVE IS ON ITS WAY!

Dreamers, you see everything is color while the world is getting darker, LOVE IS ON ITS WAY!

So hold on another day caused LOVE IS ON ITS WAY, You'll find its gonna be ok caused LOVE IS ON ITS WAY, Alright you'll find a brighter day caused LOVE IS ON ITS WAY

Leaders, show us how to love each other, it could help us to recover, LOVE IS ON ITS WAY!

Lonely, I believe that you will find me and together we will truly see LOVE IS ON ITS WAY!

People close they hearts and locked it deep inside because some of them are too scared to face the truth and some are not prepared to take a huge responsibility. Love means a feeling of caring and wanting to be together with others. There are plenty type of love; LOVE towards GOD, RELIGION, PARENTS, FAMILY, FRIENDS, ENVIRONMENT, ANIMALS and even LIFE. It's a great pleasure that God created and every single person has the feeling of wanting to love and to be loved. I loved my God, religion, parents, family and friends. I couldn't ask more then being together with them all the time.

The innocent Iffah Garib used to feel that she was all alone by herself when nobody around to care and love her but she's grown up to be a big girl with happy faces and hopes. She is really thankful after all there are still few people around to be her shoulder to share her laughs and tears.

Haha it this the mood when you've spent watching more than 1 romantic movies in a day. Haha so long.. till next post ('',)

Part time job

Anyone wants to offer me a part time job from May 2011 to September 2011? I need a part time job to cover my traveling cost and I'm not going to stay in UTP just for a class weekly - a waste of time. Man, I'll do anything as long as I can get some working experience and it doesn't not have to be oil and gas industry. I'm looking for something that is pay per hours and I'll do what ever it takes to at least I'll gain something during the unnecessary extension semester. I need money and I need job! Please!!!

I have few in minds actually but I really desperately put money and experience as my main priority. Mc Donald's attendance, baby sitter, anything... >.< GIVE ME SOME GOOD IDEAS!!! please

A girl named NATRAH

her sad story attracted people

 

Yesterday night I had the opportunity to watch the theater on 'Natrah', a Dutch girl who has been raise by a Malay mother. Biologically she's a Catholic daughter of a Dutch Sergeant army and his wife, Adelaine Hunter. During the World War II, Adrianus Hertogh was captured by the Japanese Army and rising her children alone with help from her mother (Nor Louise), Adelaine made the decision to hand over Maria (Natrah-9 years old) to Che Aminah (a Javanese lady - Nor Louise's friend). Aminah brought Natrah to Kemaman, Terengganu and being raised up as a Muslim and a Malay girl with brown hair. Her series of life was at the peak when the Court of Singapore decided that Natrah belongs to her biological parents and she was only 13 years old when she was forced to reconvert to be a catholic.

I don't really like to talk about her life and I couldn't bare to look at the after-life stories when she started to be mentally distracted when she was claimed to be the murderer of her second husband's death (first was Mansor Adabi)  in the Netherlands. I can't imagine how she can survive the world that all she know is miserable and confuse. Eventhough she was a Muslim for 5 years but she has the right to choose her own path after she's 18 which I think she was still confused and sad with the second marriage of her first husband. 

with Mansor Adabi (her first husband)

picture click here

But, there are thousand things that we can learnt from her life, there are mistakes done by Che Aminah and Adelaine Hunter who  caused the main enormity to this little girl. Che Aminah should asked for a written letter from Adelaine that allows Aminah to raise Natrah as a muslim. Che Aminah should also consult her lawyer before letting Natrah marrying Mansor when she was only 13 years old. Meanwhile Adelaine should be aware that Che Aminah is a Muslim and there is a very high possibility that she'll convert her daughter with or without force.

Actually this is a fate after all but maybe these story and suffers are meant to be a great lesson to others, like us. I just hope that Natrah could have a better life after the court decision but reading her story in the internet I felt really sorry and sympathy to her. I used to blamed her that she has the right to choose her own religion once she reached 18 years old but noticing her mental problem and psychological, I don't really think that she was capable enough to decide her life.

So people, this little girl was a victim and a medium to teach us how to be better and rational in thinking of giving your kids to someone else and raising other people's kids. We should be prepared mentally and physically in any circumstances that will happen with or without we noticing those. Never let you mistakes to ruin an innocent life. I wish everyone a great day and so long :) weeee~