I miss my family

It was a great weekend spending time with my family in the Lost World of Tambun. Eventhough I'm having 3 tests this week and last weekend was the best time to struggle with books but I'm totally not going to regret with the time spent with my family. After all, that is even worthy for me than reading those books. I MISS THEM already! ;(

Y Generation

Today I learnt a great lesson, am I really a Y generation? I'm kinda proud of myself and how my parents had put their hard efforts in teaching me to be a good human being and that makes me think that I'm a bit off-fashion from this transformation. Y generation is also known as the Boomerang generation or Peter Pan Generation, because of the members' perceived penchant for delaying some rites of passage into adulthood, longer periods than most generations before them. These labels were also a reference to a trend toward members living with their parents for longer than previous generation (Shaputis Kathleen).

That is so true. It was totally proven when I saw my so called new generation being totally rude to the lecturers. Who to be blamed? The new generations or their parents (baby boomers)? Were they being brought up in a wrong way? What about the parents being strict and a bit control their kids life? Is it because of the food or the actually mindset that this new generation have? 

Yeah, I was being brought up by baby boomers and I'm the Y-gen but I'm totally thankful that my parents taught me to be a good girl and respect others regardless their ages. Eventhough they kinda control my social life but after all I felt that was the best decision they've made for me. Ok, what was happen this morning in my class was, during the lecture, most of the students left their seats just to get a piece of an evaluation form. It happen in spurt. All I remembered when my lecturer was talking in front those great juniors walking to the entrance chasing out a master student to get the form. Hell-O the lecturer is in front talking people! When the lecturer asked what is happening? those students in the front row didn't explain to him. Anyway, those forms are only for those who came earlier. It's a bonus marks for us but this 'TOO CLEVER' master student distributed those in the class. She's a moron and because of that I really felt sorry for my lecturer. And I swear to God, I will never ever gonna be a lecturer. If I was the one talking in front, I bet I'll get tempered and leave the hall. Those juniors should really fell sorry about their bad attitude and behavior. 

So are you proud to be the Y generation? I don't, cause I can't imagine how these kind of people will manage an organization or a country and I am ashamed with what happened this morning. So I am a Y generation but with an old-fashioned and out-dated mind. So long :) 

Good people are to be forgotten

I know it's a critical time for me to do post writing. Tests are here and there like Hell-o but I think this is something worth enough to be thought of and share with. Have you ever thought why do people done even recognize you in class or give a d*mn sh** to you? Lets think this way, most of good people are always meant to be forgotten. Quick question, have you ever happen to asked yourself, 'if I died, will they be anyone remember me? Pray for me? Cry for me?'

I like to use our Prophet Muhammad (PBOM) as the most perfect example. He's the best creation of all. He made no sins, don't lie, pure heart, never hate others and thousands of good behaviors. When he was still alive, did he get a great attendance by people around him? NO! Only from those who have trust in him. That implies to us too. People tend to forget about us because they don't care about us and we give them nothing as a repay but we should be thankful because there are also people around that trust in us and sincerely to be apart of your world.

They never recognized your existence because for them you are not worth to be think off and you gives nothing to their world. I live in this shadow for 5 years when I was in my High school. High schools are high schools. Eventhough college are like high schools with expensive book but in college it makes me to think maturely and start to create my own path-way unlike high school. I'm not trying to say that I'm good but with all I did back in high schools, I think I was the one of the good girl after all. Haha (with proofs OK!)

I though that I will always be remembered once school life ended but I was all wrong. I used to be a nerd girl with big bulky bag-pack while they came to school with fancy modern sling bags. Yeah that made the differences. Haha. Lets do some reverse psychology, what do you people thing? I planned to go to the SAB class of 2005 reunion in KL early January and I planned to wear something that they've never seen me in. Of course something appropriate OK! are we still in the same page? haha so I don't wish to show off the 'me' that they'll love it but I just want them to realize my attendance. Is it alright? Haha.

So long :)

I farted

Yeah3... I farted in the chancellor hall this evening when the speaker told that final year students will have to extend for another semester which means I'll be graduating in Sept 2011 instead of May 2011. This is to comply the new regulation and system made by the government and the university management. WHAT IS THIS? Isn't this is a free world that allows one to do anything that he/she desired for? Ok, I'm not angry but I can't believe that this blind decision was made without thinking about the circumstances to us. I'm totally on their side for the new system but telling us, the final year to extend another semester is so irrational and ridiculous.

Most of my friends from other universities are doing their final semester and even some of them are out in the market for job but me still locked here in the ground of Tronoh, Perak. Urgh! Don't they think that by extending that unnecessary semester is like asking us to postpone our working life where we gonna have our own money and leave all these books behind? To be honest, these 7 semesters have equip me with an adequate knowledge and preparation to be part of the oil and gas family. Why should I wait any longer to be in the real world as a professional engineer?

Moreover, we had all the subjects covered and by the end of next semester, there'll be no more required subjects to be taken. Then why do we need that 1 semester after all? Is the management expecting us to be in the campus for only 1 EXTRA credit hour? What kind of mind do they have. What about our scholars? The extend semester can at least cost another RM 10000 into our debt with an extra bonded year. Man, I totally disagree with that. They should just allow us to graduate in May 2011. If they need someone to justify on this I'll take the challenge and I bet even the lecturers won't agree with the extension semester.

SAY NO TO EXTENSION SEMESTER! MAY 2011 IT WILL BE!

Second Hopes

Astonished reading about the death of Paul. Can anyone tells me how old is he? Cause all I can is he looked like a small cute little dude instead of a giant big fat octopus. Ok sarcastic! haha so something rant through my mind and I just feel that this is the best place to share with. Ok people this time lets talk on second hopes. Not asking for Paul to be reborn. haha but there's a thought that asked me 'What if this news weren't true? What if Paul is still breathing healthy?' Have anyone experienced this once? Last time I checked, yeah many for me.

Second hopes. I like to read about cancer survivors cause I think they are brave and strong enough to walk into those radioactives and fight those cells with hope they'll cured and re-alive. I read about a lady who was confirmed for second level of breast cancer. For her surviving from those bad cells really make her appreciate life better and it's the second hope that God gave for her to embrace the uniqueness of this temporary world.

Asking for a second hope is common among humans because we make mistakes and I think the word 'SORRY' defined the second hope. We asked to be forgiven as that will unite us back with our loves one for instance. Nonetheless, what about giving second hope/chance? Do we have the power to allow that? I know the ultimate decider would be the Almighty but He gives us brain and heart to differ good and bad. My dad used to tell me to use both 'gifts', consider with brain and perceive with heart, then you'll make a good decision.

To be honest, I'm talking about myself. I found that I hardly forgive people. Not intentionally but I just can't stand those 'sorry' words over and over again from the same mouth. That reflected the trust isn't it? Sometimes I just don't feel mad about those mistakes but I hardly forget away those bad things done to me. Does that means I haven't give them a second chance? Am I that bad? I tried to demolish all out but when the person hurt me again I'll recalled back all those bad memories. Man... I'm really screwed and sorry for that to those I acted insanely but trust me if possible I don't want to hate anybody. I ain't no angel, just an ordinary girl that seeking for her happiness and trying her best to be herself.

So Long folks for now :) RIP Paul!

Dead meat

Finally, the pressures are here. TESTS!!!! Why do they have to conduct tests? I don't want tests I rather to have thousands of presentation then sitting in the hall cracking my head and exhaust my fingers writing and spitting all my ideas and knowledge in a piece of paper. After graded, those papers will just go into the bin waiting to be recycled.

Urm, next week I'll be sitting for 3 tests and 2 of them in the same day. Then during the study week, I'll struggled for another paper on Monday. OK! I'm getting scared and can't think as a normal person now. I hate TESTS!!! and will never ever gonna love them :( I need some entertainment and I need space to relax. please please please....Haha

Wish me all the best and So long ;)

Blair Waldorf

When people asked you like whom you wanna be, what will be your answer? I know nobody has asked me that question yet but I've prepared my answer. Haha. I know the best person that I want to be would be my parents but in this case let me give an answer that is beyond my comfort zone and a character that everybody can imagine.

I like to be like Blair Waldorf and I bet I'm like one now. :P Blair is a bitch, people who doesn't really know her would say that but she's actually a cagey girl and that makes her the person that anyone will turn to for help. She solved many problems and felt happy with those favors asked. Even her rivals and those who hate her will ask favors from her. In the 2nd season of  the air, still remember when she dated the Marcus guy and it turns up Vanessa found that Marcus is having an affair with the Catherine, a Dutchess (Nate's old-sleeping mate). Eventhough she's hurt to hear that from Vanessa and told her not to tell anyone and she'll solve the problem, Blair tried to chase those two out from town in a good way without the Dutch noticing it and Nate gets his money but because of Vanessa's jealousy she told the Dutch and that made Blair angry to her because after all no one wins. I like the way how Blair things, she made that decision fairly. Her plan was perfect where everybody will get their parts regardless she'll gets nothing from that.

For me, Blair is a very protective person that we can imagine to be with. She'll do anything to protect her friends and safe them from any problems. She doesn't mind if she's the bad girl but Serena has to be the good one. After all, she's the intelligent head and hardly to get influenced by others  who plans to overthrown Serena and no body can split them two.

During the first episode of Gossip Girl, recalled when she said to Serena she was deeply hurt when S left her alone without any letters. She has no one to be her shoulder when she found out that her parents were working on their divorce and her father left her mom for A GUY! That was the sadness moment that I think a girl can hold on alone. Eventhough B survived but that changed her to be mean and self-center due to the severe lack of attention syndrome.

I love the character because I wish to be like her I don't care if people called me a bitch or an arrogant person because after all only those who know me will accept the real. There's a kind heart in Blair and she seems to be very strong but actually Blair is even fragile than Serena that is why she cried more than when she was all alone in her room.

That's it people. What ever it is, we should just be ourselves and try to improve those weaknesses and bad attitudes. So long :)

Modern Vampires

I'm wondering why do modern vampires are damn hot and great looking? Ok, maybe it's too subjective to talk about appearance but all I see is in any vampire stories the main character has to be a guy that is sexy, hot and macho. I can't stop watching those just because of that attraction. haha I'm normal at least :)

So, talking about vampires, people will start thinking about Edward Cullen (Robert Pattinson). haha me too but I don't really like the story just because not really into Kristen Steward, sorry girl just can't see you with your real love story. To be honest, I like Robert more in the Harry Potter movie when he looked like an innocent adolescence. hehehe but undeniable he's hot and he looks cool with that white thick make up on :P

I love this look more :P

So the other vampire story that can attract me is the Vampire Diaries. It was actually an intentional mistake done when I downloaded an episode of the series caused I thought it was a movie but whatever it still impressed me and now it's like an adrenaline to me. Haha unfortunately there isn't much support and viewers, the series seems to dim off and I miss those actions ;(

Ok, do you people realized all vampire stories are about love between a human and a vampire? Hahaha stereotype and common! That is why I said they can only attract viewers through those actors and actresses. hihi. So vampire diaries has several hot vampires sailing the series. We have Paul Wesley as Stefan Salvatore, Ian Somerhalder as Damon Salvatore and Steven McQueen (cute name huh :P) as Jeremy Gilbert.

Ian Somerhalder

Paul Wesley

Steven McQueen

That's it... SO LONG :)

It's my destiny

Good roommates would not to these stuffs to hurt their roommates:

(1) You hate your roommate to have a better life

(2) Slam the door and cupboard especially when you rommie is sleeping. That is sooooo rude and rattle your roommate's nerves

(3) Turn your speaker loudly when you rommie is studying. Do learn how to respect people

(4) Spit taboo words like you're a perfect human

(5) Hate your roommie for what they do but at the same time those are your habits

(6) When you get fight with your boyfriend/girlfriend, you let the stress out to your roommie. She/He is not you stress dustbin! Please take note

(7) You be you roommie photocopy. From head to toe you copy her style with even the same perfume. That is CRITICAL!

(8) You chomping like a duck beside her and you don't even offer your roommate some

(9) You bring friends to sleepover without letting know your roommate. They need their own privacy too

(10) You mock your roommate for her/his physical appearance. That is too much. Remember, you're not perfect too

NOTE: If you unintentionally do a happy-jump when your roommate told you that he/she is having a sleepover at others, that means you're the victim and that makes you don't feel comfortable staying in the room with these type of people. All the best finding the right roommies and Please don't do these things to your roommate.

So long :)

I hate my own smell

I have this classmate, frankly, this post is not to talk about how bad he smells and not to be bias on other international students in UTP. Read till the end and you'll understand. This classmate of mine is from a dry country I guess where it is hot but rarely sweat MAYBE. So because of that, he didn't use any deodorant every morning, any perfume and even take his morning bath. Oh ho, Malaysia is different. Here, it's really humid sweating is like our best friend. So in getting rid of those bad bacteria from attacking our bodies, we have shower twice everyday (minimum). Technically, one in the early morning after up from bed and the second time will be in the evening or before off to bed.

So this classmate normally caused the whole class a lung cancer. We hardly can breath deep whenever he sits in the front row of the class. As a human, I know it is a bad thing to avoid him and run away from him but as a human to, we hardly can't breath and does he care about that? We felt bad everytime  we mocked him but why didn't he try to make a better study-environment for us? At one time, most of my other classmates thought of giving his a year stock of deodorants, shower foams and perfumes just to hold these balance of months in UTP. I'm really sorry for him but he should try to to do something about it. Just one quick question, how can we advice these kind of people in a proper and polite way about their bad smells?

Ok, that's only a warm up exercise of my post (it is a good start before talking about my new smell). When I woke up from my so called 'nap' this afternoon, I smelled my hand and euwwwww! ;( After spending around 13 hours in the lab, I think I can't stand the smell of my own hand. OH NO! It smells really bad and I keep sneezing everytime I smells it. Urm this smell came from the cement powder with grease and steel (experiment - mix them all together, please try this at home :P hehe). Ok I really hate this smell and my hands are rough now. I tried to wash it everytime I'm back from the lab but it didn't works. I tried to soap it like more than 5 times but the smell is still there. Argh... this is really torturing me! I've tried to put some lotion of my hand but it still feels like a wood, hardly to bend and grasp.

In the lab, I did put on the glove but holding grease using latex are too uncomfortable and it slows down my works in the lab. So during tools cleaning I intend to take off those glove and us my bare hand. I know I can't because my skin is too sensitive with soaps and detergent but how on earth am I surviving if I pamper myself from doing those harsh job. After all, I'm a Petroleum Engineer I can't run far from those dirt. Haha hopefully after few more wash, those smells will go off :)

So long :)

Expect to Expert

After having an intense lab job yesterday I felt like I've losing all my bones. Can't feel those now but what can I do today lab is calling AGAIN. I bet I'll try hard to end this as soon as possible and I swear to God I'll do my best to wrap all those jobs before next semester. My hands are like wood now I think the roughness coefficient increases even lotion can't really help me. :P

It was slightly a failure yesterday. We thought that we can get a better strength as we have change the cement composition but looks like the trend is non-polar. Ok, that is so frustrating and I really need to get back on the additives and think of some quick-good solutions.

So actually I'm having some dilemma I'll be having 3 test next weeks and I haven't touch even a single thing. I'm really worry but on my other hand, the lab works are crucial too since we need CO2 test on those specimens.

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After few minutes tested the last specimen. Yeay Alhamdulillah the result was so great! I felt that I'm a victim of TIME. Too many things to do in a day and to many things to think everyday. To be honest we are given 24 hours but why do I have to spend 8 hours with my bestie-bed? oh man, sometimes it can reach 10 hours OK! Argh... argh... 

Thats all just wanna spend sometime to release some good burdens out. hahah till next post. So long :)

What? Really?

Today officially I'm POOR. These days I think my money flows like waterfall which I can really see where it flows but I know it flows rapidly and rush. Hush hush baby hehe (not related). As far as I remember I withdrew my money last Thursday before the convocation in UTP but now after a week, I'm drought. OK, this is critical and I really need to control my spending but I'm still wondering where did I spend my money that much?

Ok, at the convo fair I had some shopping of scarfs and graduation gifts but the rest went off for foods. Haha see there you go FOOD! Why do they cost me a lot? Roughly spending for food here in UTP can reach RM10 daily. So you only need a week to used all RM 100. Oh no.... how can I save some money? This is critical and I really really need to figure out some solutions to control my spending.

This morning, I went to the cafe for breakfast, I spent only RM 1.50 but left with RM 3 in my purse. So based on my rough calculation, that would be right enough for my dinner. But this evening we I walked down to the cafe with few friends, I checked my purse and all I can see is fly coming out from it..... Oh hoooooo.... where's my money gone?

 

What should I do now? My tummy is eventually asking for some food to digest. My body asked some to be burn as energy. Praise to God when I have friends to back me up at the cashier or else I will just sit there and look at them eating their food gluttonously like a cannibal just had his first meal :( poor me hihi

Just few minutes past, I was going through some notes on High Temperature High Pressure (HPHT) wells for my test next Friday. I took out my favorite blue ball-pen that I've been using since my internship (10 months ago) after few words written, the ink started to fade out from the paper. Ok, dont say I just broke my pen again (actually just broke one last week). So I opened up the ink and my godness, I dried up the whole thing haha. No wonder the ink fades. So, I dug up my case and took out another blue ball-pen and start writing. What is happening? the ink faded too. Am I having this bad luck problem or these pens planned to dry on the same day? Please dont this to me. I opened the ink tube, ok it's still full but why there's no ink? Man, I just remembered that this is the pen that I brake last week. Can I catch any birds tonight and use their feathers to continue study? Urgh!!! What a day. So since I'm a bit frustrated, I insist myself  to close away my books and off to my bed early. hehe

So long all :) Have a great day and sweet dreams :D

Childhood

We say children are cruel but they aren't. They are too honest with their words because they haven't make any sins and mistakes. They are pure in heart and mind. I miss my childhood life where I can say whatever I want and do whatever I wish for without people comment and against those. I've gone through half way of my final year as a student and I started to think if I were to be given choices either to be an adult or a child, I will choose the second option. Being a child, I have no responsible to think of, no problems to be faced on. All I can think is doing what I love without bothering what other people will think of me.

There are 2 stories that I will never forget about me as an innocent kid. I still remember when I was in the kindergarten, my teacher told me that my results were good and asked me to show my results to my mom and dad. Then she said 'please get your parents to put their signatures here in the report card, OK' with curiosity I asked my teacher 'What is signature?', she smiled 'Iffah minta tolong ibu dan Ebak tandatangan kertas ni'. So i nodded and bring my result back, at night before went off to bed I asked my parents to sign the report card for me. Early in the morning, I checked the card and they haven't sign it so thinking of the 'BIG RESPONSIBILITY' that my teacher gave me, I took a black pen and start to draw my own hand on my test papers. Before my parents left for their work, my mom asked for the report card and proudly I said 'It's ok, Fafa dah tandatangan' with hand showing her the signature. My mom was so shocked and laughed like crazy. She called my dad and they were laughing. Ok, I can still remember how my face looked like, wondering why were they laughing at me. 

'tandatangan'

My mom told me signature is like an initial, it is unique where different people will have different style of signing. Ok, that was really an innocent action and my mom loves to tell people about that whenever she were talking about my childhood. She also loves to tell people about how I was acting when we were in the USA. When I was 4, my family and I went for a vacation in the State. One day when we were walking in a park, I begged for a chewing gum as I saw many people there chewing those and they looked cool. My parents refused to buy me one. After few minutes walking, my mom looked at me and she asked me 'Fafa, what's in your mouth?' with innocent face, I took a gum out from my mouth and she was so panic asking where I got the gum "Siapa bagi ni?, where did you get this?". Honestly I can't remember that but my mom will always lever this. Based on her story, I got the gum under a bench in the park. Yeah I know it's disgusting  haha but maybe because I was too eager to have one and that eventually forced me to just take it from the bench. This shows how determine I am in getting want I want right? haha :P

Eventhough those days are behind me now but they are vivid in my parents heart and mind. That's all I can ask for as a daughter. Plus, at least I have something funny to share with my kids, grand-kids, great gran-kids... Haha :P

Ok, till next post, So long :)

I love Adobe

Aniq and Uncle Haziq (before)

High five (before)

us (before)

Singapore (before)

trio (before)

See how Adobe can really make those pictures look better and more artistic... hehe

So long :)

Blue & Elton John - Sorry Seems to Be the Hardest Word

Sorry seems to be the hardest word video

What I got to do to make you love me?

What I got to do to make you care?

What do I do when lightning strikes me?

And I wake to find that you're not there?

What I got to do to make you want me?

What I got to do to be heard?

What do I say when it's all over?

Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

It's sad, so sad

It's a sad, sad situation.

And it's getting more and more absurd.

It's sad, so sad

Why can't we talk it over?

Oh it seems to me

That sorry seems to be the hardest word.

What do I do to make you want me?

What I got to do to be heard?

What do I say when it's all over?

Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

It's sad, so sad

It's a sad, sad situation.

And it's getting more and more absurd.

It's sad, so sad

Why can't we talk it over?

Oh it seems to me

That sorry seems to be the hardest word.

Yeh. Sorry

What I got to do to make you love me?

What I got to do to be heard?

What do I do when lightning strikes me?

What have I got to do?

What have I got to do?

When sorry seems to be the hardest word

My bad ;(

The clock shows 3:22 in morning but I can't sleep thinking of bad thing I did to someone that I called my friend. I feel really bad about it. I sought for his forgiveness eventhough he say he's not mad at me. But why do I still feel guilty and it seems like I can't forgive myself for the mistake I did. Is he sincerely say those words or he's avoiding me? Ok, now all the bad thoughts are coming into my 'stupid' head.

When he said 'You don't know me Iffah', those words really meant a lot to me and I take it seriously. I'm not mad at him because after all it was my fault. It's true when we barely know someone, we intend to hurt him/her very much. I made thousands of mistake but this time it feels worse as I've just spoilt my own trust and will I ever going to get that trust back?

I don't want the hate feeling to be a barrier in my friendship but I keep on losing it day by day. Laughing at people is so rude. Being too childish sometimes make me do irritating things and take serious things as my toys. I love to see people around me happy and fill their life with laughs but 'this laugh' just made someone's day a miserable. I'm really really really sorry. If you want me to beg for an apologi in front of you, I'll do it! I'll do whatever it takes for you to forgive me sincerely but the thing is will I have the guts to bring all the guilty and shame feelings in front of him?

You're RIGHT! We are from different backgrounds, cultures and I shouldn't make fun of it. Honestly, that wasn't my intention. The awkward and different looks that caused the laugh but I take the blame because I don't really know what were you thinking at that moment and yeah I don't know you. I will never ever going to forget this mistake. I really really feel bad about it because I just scratched a special heart. You really have a special heart and that makes me feel even more guilty. You helped me but this is what I repay you, its really unfair for me to do that. My bad!

Sorry ;(  
p/s: if you were to read this, you know who you are

Let's do some mash up

IT'S MY LIFE by Bon Jovi

This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks

It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down

It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive

[Chorus:]
It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!
 

MY CONFESSION by Usher

These are my confessions
Just when I thought I said all I could say
My chick on the side said she got one on the way
These are my confessions
Man I'm thrown and I dont know what to do
I guess I gotta give part 2 of my confessions
If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all
Damn near cried when I got that phone call
I'm so throwed and I don't know what to do
But to give you part 2 of my confessions

Now this gon' be the hardest thing I think I ever had to do
Got me talkin' to myself askin' how I'm gon' tell you
'bout that chick on part 1 I told ya'll I was creepin' with, creepin' with
Said she's 3 months pregnant and she's keepin' it
The first thing that came to mind was you
Second thing was how do I know if it's mine and is it true
Third thing was me wishin' that I never did what I did
How I ain't ready for no kid and bye bye to our relationship

These are my confessions
Just when I thought I said all I could say
My chick on the side said she got one on the way
These are my confessions
Man I'm thrown and I dont know what to do
I guess I gotta give part 2 of my confessions
If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all
Damn near cried when I got that phone call
I'm so throwed and I don't know what to do
But to give you part 2 of my confessions

Sittin here stuck on stupid, tryna figure out
When, what, and how I'mma let this come out of my mouth

Said it ain't gon' be easy
But I need to stop thinkin', contemplatin'
Be a man and get it over with (over with)
I'm ridin' in my whip
Racin' to her place
Talkin' to myself
Preparin' to tell her to her face
She open up the door and didn't want to come near me
I said "one second baby please hear me"

This by far is the hardest thing I think I've ever had to do
To tell you, the woman I love
That I'm having a baby by a woman that I barely even know
I hope you can accept the fact that I'm man enough to tell you this
And hopefully you'll give me another chance
This ain't about my career
This ain't about my life
It's about us
Please

These are my confessions
Just when I thought I said all I could say
My chick on the side said she got one on the way
These are my confessions
Man I'm thrown and I dont know what to do
I guess I gotta give part 2 of my confessions
If I'm gonna tell it then I gotta tell it all
Damn near cried when I got that phone call
I'm so throwed and I don't know what to do
But to give you part 2 of my confessions

Horse Riding

syazrah's excited face

izyan's cool look

this is me :P

These are just to show how excited we are to ride Aljabar! YEAHHHHHAAAAAAAA!!! I need more rides,,, :) with a cowboy hat.. it will be Awesome :P

Before that, the owner told us that by riding, it can actually do some exercises on our back bones and this exercise can be even better than jogging. So go on, do some horse riding!

So long~

How to be a "good" Rommate?

Staying in hostel with strangers really taught me a lot on being a "good Roommate". Here are few tips from me :) Enjoy reading!

1) When they are in bad mood, look at them and all you have to do is just LAUGH until they leave the room to a calmer place!

2) When they slam the door while you're sleeping, turn your back and shout on the pillow "God, is this some kind of punishment to me?" and go back to sleep

3) When they turn on their music loudly, take a Qoran/religion books and read it loudly

4) When they are sleeping, watch comedy with a headphone on and laugh out loud!

5) When they are on the phone talking like they own the room, take your phone and pretend to talk about business and money

6) When they are not in the room, turn the music on and dance like crazy

7) When they are studying, browse through online shopping sites and ask them to join you

8) When celebrating their birthdays, put salt instead of sugar in their drinks

9) When they bring a bunch of friends into the room and they've been talking like more than 2 hours there, ask those friends of them 'Aren't you people feel hot?' to make them feel guilty and take their butt off from the room

10) When they start to copy your style in any ways, give them the exact clothes, perfume or related stuffs and say 'Dear rommie, these are my stuffs that I don't want anymore and I know you love them... HAPPY BIRTHDAY dear!'

** WARNING: These are just for entertainment... Any injuries/fatalities are not responsible upon. Thank you

haha>>> Till next post, So long :)~

TOW- Tired of Waiting

Waiting is killing! Waiting is torturing! I'm totally tired of waiting for unnecessary things to happen and tired of making people around me happy yet I'm the one who is suffering. Waiting for you to come and grab me is like waiting for the pig to fly. Meanwhile waiting for them is like living with no dice. I'm the player, you're the judge. I never gets the ball into my court and it has always been yours eternally. The time is ticking and soon it'll ends!

So long :)

Can't Have You by Jonas Brothers

You've warned me that you were gonna leave
I never thought that you would really go
I was blind but baby now I see
Broke your heart but now I know

That I was being such a fool
And I didn't deserve you

I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I don't know if I'll get up
And I don't wanna cause a scene
But I'm dying without your love

Begging to hear your voice
Tell me you love me too
'Cause I'd rather just be alone
If I know that I can't have you

Looking at the letter that you left
(The letter that you left, will I ever get you back?)
Wondering if I'll ever get you back
(Ooh ah, ooh ah, ooh ah, ooh ah)

Dreaming about when I'll see you next
(When will I see you next? Will I ever get you back?)
Knowing that I never will forget
(I won't forget, I won't forget)

That I was being such a fool
And I still don't deserve you

I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I don't know if I'll get up
And I don't wanna cause a scene
'Cause I'm dying without your love, yeah

Begging to hear your voice
Tell me you love me too
'Cause I'd rather just be alone
If I know that I can't have you

So tell me what we're fighting for
'Cause we know that the truth means so much more
'Cause you would if you could, don't lie

'Cause I'll give everything that I've got left
To show you I mean what I have said
I know I was such a fool but I can't live without you

I don't wanna fall asleep
Don't know if I'll get up
I don't wanna cause a scene
But I'm dying without your love

I'm begging to hear your voice
Tell me you love me too
'Cause I'd rather just be alone
If I know that I can't have you, yeah

Don't wanna fall asleep
(Don't wanna fall asleep)
'Cause I don't know if I'll get up
(Who knows if I'll get up)
I don't wanna cause a scene
'Cause I'm dying without your love, yeah

I'm begging to hear your voice
(Let me hear your voice)
Tell me you love me too
(Tell me you love me too)
'Cause I'd rather just be alone
If I know that I can't have you

Why do people don't believe in God?

I'm not trying to be skeptical on this matter but why do people dare to not to believe in God? After watching the third episode of Glee (season 2), there are thousands of questions that keep playing in my head. I'm not trying to be discriminate or disrespect others' thoughts I just wondering why there are some humans that are dare to say that there's no God. This is just a personal opinion from me, no offense.

If we say that there is no God, then how would miracles happen? How does the planets rotate on their axes orbiting the sun without colliding with each other? How does night and day alternate? How plants grow? How clouds floating and hanging without any lines? How a fetus can grow in its mother's womb? Have we ever thought what kind of power that has these marvelous and  great abilities in doing all these?

Sue Slyvester claimed that she didn't believe in God after she used to pray hard to Him asking Him to help her sister but God didn't help her. That made her think it is not because she didn't pray hard enough but it is because no one is listening to her. If we think using our rational mind, yes Sue is true but miracles are not meant to be rational. Rationally, can we live with no heart or a liver? NO WE CAN'T! but why? those miracles are not meant to be taken as rational matters caused they're aren't. Plus we are the slave of the creator and that is why we are being tested by Him. Don't we think if He tested us means He remembered us and love us?

When 'philosophers' dare to ask 'Where is God if he really exist?' Then why do we believe in love, pain, happy, sad feelings when we actually can't see those or touch those. Aren't they real? Yes we can feel it but what about Heaven and Hell? Can we really feel it? We believe that they'll be next life and good people died to be in the Heaven while bad guys will go to Hell. We believe in angels and devil's. Can we really feel it? WE CAN'T but we still believe there is Heaven, there's Hell, Angels and Devils do exist. So what about God?

Have we ever ask ourselves why do there is life on this earth? Why do we live? What are the main mission of living here in this world? Why can't we just stay in the Heaven straight after we're out from the womb or  do we really need a womb to be born? GOD is there but not among us the human. If He does, don't you think we can do miracles to? Can you build your own earth with oxygen, plants, sea, living creatures to be in it? Our brain is limited and it's a lie to say that we can be like God or I don't believe in God. He made this world full with challenges and that will differentiate between a good person and others and we as the slave should just live in this temporary world and do our best to be accepted by Him to be in the Heaven and be blessed by Him.

Again, this post meant to nobody. I'm just spitting my thoughts on the topic and arguments in Glee. No meant of offenses. Thanks and till next post! So Long~

This is ART!

Britannica Online defines art  as "the use of skill and imagination in the creation of aesthetic objects, environments, or experiences that can be shared with others." Ok, based on the definition anything that we do or think is ART! The only difference between a normal art and extra-ordinary art is the commercial value. I found these few pictures that I called as the extraordinary arts that I've ever seen. I'm in love with the artist and he is sooooo damn creative, talented and gifted. Have a look at them:

look at those visible wrinkles on this lady's face and hands

look at the crumples of this teenager's T and her shadow

This beautiful lady is like a model standing for a perfect pose. Look at the details of her hair

This lady is like walking out from the wall with great effects on her wear and body

These are the realistic wall paintings and I bet you they look like 3-dimension drawings and am telling these are drawings and I swear they are not real!. Behind the scene, a man is painting his IDEA of CREATIVENESS on the wall. For me, this is so not a mural, this is freakin' outrageous (in a positive way) and brilliant ART!

the new century of Leonardo Da Vinci :)

 Till next post... So long :) Have a great day all~

Comfortable fashion?

Why do people rush for the latest fashion? Why some of us spent thousands just to wear those so called 'exquisite' and 'sophisticated'. Some people claimed wearing those, one will look sexy, dainty and expensive but they really forget about the comfortability and side effects of those walks. Have a look at these latest shoe designs from Japan, they look really painful and ridiculous.

I'll look far way high than the others but I think I'll fall thousand times to stand on it

Unique platform with unique health effects

Will I be able to lift my foot? What if I'm in rush?

Ok, only Ballerina will feels comfortable with this

 Are we really will spend thousands of dollar to own those shoes that can caused severe health problems especially to the spine and back bones? What will happen to us when we're older and will that change our walking?

Own this USD 3600 and walk on your tippy-toe? 'Yes' by Victoria Beckham

Are these comfortable?

It's ok to go for updated fashions but never let yourself to be the 'fashion victim'. Personally, if really you need heels then should just go for the normal shoes. So long :) weeeee~