Mahu tapi Malu

Atas restu Allah, ku ingin miliki mu, ku berharap kau menjadi yang terakhir bagiku.

Wah sentimental la plak post kali ni kan. hehehe

Itu la cinta yang sebenarnya, cinta atas landasan Allah.

Sekarang ni makin menjadi-jadi plak wedding invitations dari kawan-kawan.

Tapi langsung tak dapat pergi those sbb I'm not in KL.

Kesian my friends smua.

Orang kata kalau kita tak pg wedding orang nanti bila kita kawain, orang pon tak nak datang. Betul ke?

I wanna go tapi selalu salah time especially bila dah start kerja ni, mana I ada time nak fly blk KL to attend :(

Tapi betulla orang kata,

waktu study orang tanya bila nak graduate?

bila dah graduate, orang tanya bila plak nak kawin?

bila dah kawin, orang akan tanya bila nak ada baby?

bila dah ada baby, diorang tanya bila nak tambah?

Betulkan? Soalan yang no ending.

Memandangkan I dah lepas the first question, sekarang soalan kedua plak.

Soalan ni lebih mencabar I think sbb kalau pasal graduation, benda tu hanya melibatkan ourselves alone je kan. And graduation tu benda yang measureable you know when you gonna finish your study.

Tapi soalan pasal kawin ni... Allahuakbar, I paling tak suka. haha

Tak suka because I memang tak blh jawab sekarang.

I hope that I can meet the right man to be my partner.

Memang la I ada interest ngan lelaki tp diorg takde to me.

What can I do.

But at the same time, I nak focus on my career. Logik tak kalau I cakap, I nak boyfriend and career to moves together? urm, macam impossible but it's not actually :p. Maybe orang ingat I dah tua and should be ready to have my own family. Tp I takut sebenarnya with marriage. I takut I'm not ready for it. So I take a safe move to not to think about it. Tapi tipu la kan kalau I cakap I takde intention nak kawin.

Kenapa asyik post pasal kawin je ni??? haha. I semakin hari semakin tua :p so orang around me mesti la cerita pasal their wives. So bila I dgr and they tell me about their kids. I pon nak ada anak sendiri. Eh laaaaa, melampau sgt dah kan topic kita ni.

Ok2, macam ni la. Kalau Allah takdirkan I meet my jodoh sekarang, I redha and I hope I'm making the right choice to tell him to wait for few more years. I need to start my engine dulu before I really ready to settle down. It's not easy to be a wife and at the same time kerja as an Engineer. Kalau I kena pg laut or travel here and there. Takkan nak tinggalkan my husband alone. Kalau nak bawak dier, takkan dier takde kerja lain? So, tu yang hold me back kot.

Since that, I want to take this opportunity to wish Congratulations to my friends for their marriage (even some tak invite I pon *takpe I redha*):

1) Zahar and Lin

2) Ieka Moin and husband

3) Izhar and wife

4) Erna Eliana and husband

5) Mahirah and husband

6) Nadia and husband

May your marriage marks a new and better life ahead. May Allah bless the relationship till Jannah :)