pfffft

oh no the most scary thought is here! No way not this soon.

My heart has no more feelings, my brain has no more imaginations,

I lost my self-confidence, I lost my self-motivation,

I look and look and read and read on walls,

I saw sorrow, tears, failures in me

Don't tell me to never give up with 'this' life

Don't yell at me to ask me to stand by my side

Don't warn me that life is going to be better

Is Oil and Gas really my destiny?

pffft (I don't feel anything - does this mean I'm giving up?)

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????????!!!!!