Jan 18, reflection

Iffah's Night Reflection as of 18/01/2011:

Forgiving people is hard but asking for one is not!

Just please stop saying 'Lagikan Nabi Muhammad ampunkan ummat-nya inikan kita manusia biasa' or 'Forgive and forget'. Those are all bullshit! Because it is not easy to forgive others and it is totally hard to just forget it. Prophet Muhammad is perfect but not us, am I right? I learnt few things today. Every single move I made, every single thoughts I think, every single things that happened I just can't keep on lying to myself. I seek for forgiveness but I did get it, people asked for forgiveness but I hardly give it back. So that is how my world turns now.

People say 'What comes around comes all the way back around' but is that true? Maybe for some people it implies perfectly but not ALL. believe me not ALL. There are people outside there that is far way lucky that us. Unfortunately they're not us. Today I've gone through a lot. Man, I wish I can cry to myself and say 'YOU DESERVE THAT IFFAH'. Things are coming back to me now.

Today wasn't the best day in my life when I lost one of my pants and my lab test was a failure. Till at one time I shouted 'Ya Allah, what did I do wrong?'. I know I deserved those. My life is really a mess right now. Don't talk about LUCKY because I never had once. Here I just wanna share some facebook comments that I feel attracted to this;

names and pictures are censored due to privacy and sensitivity

I think that this lady is hardly forgiving her friend. Maybe it is too hurtful for her to swallow those mistakes. At a certain point, I think I can be in both position, the person seeking for apologize and the person to give apologize. Well, honestly I don't know how to response on that and we're human we make mistakes and the more mistakes you're making the better you'll learn. It is just, get the right person to learn that mistake.

There goes my reflection of the night. Till next post all. So long :)