2 men

My life currently is like choosing 2 men.

The first man was my soulmate I thought at least.

He and his family have been sacrificed ever since to my family.

They gave us money to survive, to live the world

They helped my family a lot.

I'm thankful for that

But as time goes by, he changed,

he became forceful, arrogant and selfish.

All he knows is 'because I said so'

I can't give opinion nor request anything

Whatever he decided for me I have to follow.

He's now forcing me to accept his proposal

Then I have a new guy whom I met 10 months ago

Eventhough he's a newcomer but I heard good stories about him

He spent alot for me

He helped me to learn about myself

He lend his hand to show me my ability

He proved to me that I'm good in my choice

He was the first to take me out and confess to me

But he's still waiting to propose me

I want him not 'him'

Bella now I understand

SubhanaAllah

When people asked you, Why hijab?

Appreciate yourself by showing everyone how beauty you are

For them, beauty is what they see physically but they forget that beauty is the strength that only certain people will understand.

Just like a sun, it doesn't dimmed under the cloud. The light shines day and night. The beauty of the rays lock trillion eyes. Some people spent thousands just to watch the beauty of the sunrise and the dawn.

With that bright color, sun has the gift to light up the world and even change to other colors (purple, blue, green) SUBHANALLAH

Same goes with human beauty. You're beauty is not hidden behind the hijab nor your age.

It's how you shine yourself

Be like sun. Clouds, hills and night can't never stop it from shining beautifully.

picture was taken by me on 24/11/11 in front of my house around 6.30pm local time

My road, My desicion

The past 4 years when I walk on  the road, I saw a path.

The path that my heart chose

No one could ever want to stop me

I push, I run, I skid, I move all the wind that stopped me

I determine that on the right road of my life

I became tough and as solid as metal

In heart and on hand and leg

I never regret my way

because it taught me who I am

I know myself better

At the end of the road

where the light comes,

things are about to crash

There are stones along the way

They struggle, they hold and they pull me down

like the vines they tangle me

I see the light

hand towards it but leg stuck on the fence

I force to fight but I teared

for the pain that they have caused

I fight, I break the ropes, I pull the anchor

they buzz my ears like the little bees in the hive

I shouted like a baby wanting her toy back

from a kid to an adult, dreaming

Don't stop me!

pfffft

oh no the most scary thought is here! No way not this soon.

My heart has no more feelings, my brain has no more imaginations,

I lost my self-confidence, I lost my self-motivation,

I look and look and read and read on walls,

I saw sorrow, tears, failures in me

Don't tell me to never give up with 'this' life

Don't yell at me to ask me to stand by my side

Don't warn me that life is going to be better

Is Oil and Gas really my destiny?

pffft (I don't feel anything - does this mean I'm giving up?)

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME????????!!!!!

Hudud

This post is gonna be bombed by others ni.. oh, don't get me wrong. I do agree with Hudud because that is what I believe and I don't see it as a problem. But I don't deny that the current issue in Malaysia occurs when the penalty of Hudud itself is not being explained and taught well enough to the public. Malaysian only knows how to comment and compliant but they don't really open the book to read and they don't even care to think and ask. they don't want to open their minds about the future and they refused to discuss and look for the truth because they only listen to what they love to listen and they shut their heads for things that they hate to hear. Why there are too many people against Hudud? I learnt about it when I was kids and sees it in a positive way, why can't I now?

Negative propagandas (nanti orang Malaysia semua takde tangan, pakai tangan plastic - so Orang Malaysia ni memang kaki mencuri la ye? curi harta orang, hak orang? like that) were/are made by some people to reject Hudud. For God sake, who's GOING TO CUT YOUR HAND? If you don't steal and if only if you steal without any forces and with witnesses. Look, in Hudud, stealing with force is not to be justices this way. Ok, for instance you're poor and your Mom needs money to buy her medicine, you steal peoples' money. Then the law-man has NO right to cut your hand. What about you are being forced by a gangster or else they'll kill you? You are innocent in this law. See?

Why do Hudud punish a mankind in 'the harsh' way as you see? when a person commits sin stealing with his own willingness and he/she got his/her punishment, they will regret their mistake and will never steal again. Then the public who's looking at those, they will realize their mistakes and AUTOMATICALLY, crimes can be rated down. The punishment is vary according to the offender.

I know there are too many ideologies on this hudud. Please Islam is not mean. The teaching is perfect and you should know about it before you talk about it! sorry if this post is too sensitive but I just don't want people outside (Non-Muslims especially) to see this as a problem for you. For those Muslims if you think that Hudud is wrong, then I think you're wrong because only those who commit sins will never agree on this. Berani kerana benar, takut kerana salah.

Dont't jump to the conclusion. Jangan nak main pakai cakap ikut sedap mulut about facts. Belajar untuk belajar menjadi bijak and adil. Orang melayu mengaku Islam tapi taknak terima apa yang Islam bawa. Part yang sedap kita amik, part tak sedap kita buang. Tapi what can I say, it's really menyedihkan to see orang Islam sendiri lebih percaya pada kata2 mereka yang bukan Islam tentang agama kita. Kenapa? That's the reason why I say that Muslims hanya akan kalah not because of kekuatan mereka but kerana kelemahan kita sendiri. My respect really goes to those who learn and become Muslims than us who are 'born' to be one. Think about it

PLEASE BUY BOOKS ON HUDUD (THE REAL ONE) WRITTEN BY MUSLIM AUTHORS AND YOU WILL UNDERSTAND WHAT I'M TRYING TO SAY. SORRY DIDN'T MEAN TO HURT ANYONE BUT I JUST WANT TO EASE THE UNDERSTANDING, REDUCE CONTROVERSIES AND EXPLAIN THAT ISLAM IS NOT MEAN!

Ramli is truly a Malaysian Boy

Does the name Ramli rings a bell? haha I can't stop laughing looking at my facebook friends who are intended to be like Ramli or change their name to Ramli.

Those outside Malaysia (hope there are few), Malaysian boys are well-known for their passion to football. I'm telling you, it's very odd and rare to find Malaysian boy who hate football or don't give a da*n shit with the ball world. There are few men I would say but majority are typical.

Since that, footballers are their favorite sport men. They can't live the world if they miss A match of their favorite team. Name it Manchester United? Chelsea? Manchester City? Arsenal? Liverpool? BlackBurn? BlackBerry? ooopssss hihi sorry (over-reacted).

I think they know about the team more than they know about themselves. Too passion! So, Harimau Malaya (Malayan Tiger) is our very own Malaysian team. Since the HM won the Suzuki Cup last year, the team has become famous and there is at least something to be proud off. But then, the team starts to roll down the hill (in my opinion) because they are too dependable to few players only esp the keeper and striker.

Oh please don't make me start mumbling about football because the more I write the more I'm going to give wrong infos the more it sounds funny. Whatever it is, after since Malaysian become fanatic to the progress of the Harimau Malaya, they start to become insane. Hahah (sorry no offense saje nak provoke)

So, what's with this guy named RAMLI? here watch this commercial by TM

So Ramli makes Malaysian proud without excel in his study, he can still joins the MU in the English League and make Malaysian proud when he score a goal. International player so called. He promises his father that he'll make him proud of him one day. He proved that dreams can become reality.

Why I called Ramli is the truly Malaysian boy? It's simple because most of the boy in Malaysia today wanted to be like him. like who? like him. Whatever it is 'Ramli makes us laugh and smile'

Thank you for your time and da-da for now (",)

Kenapa Saya Suka Annas Easkey?

Arrrghhh, jangan banyak tanya saya sapa Annas Easkey ni, apa mission post ni, kenapa poyo2 nak cite pasal mamat sorang ni.. kata pon Annas of course la lelaki. 

Walaupon followers ku tak ramai (berani mengaku), I tak kisah pon pasal contest yang Annas buat (poyokan diri), I nak inform je pasal this guy. (I nak commission)

Annas ni seangkatan la with my brother (Taufiq Zakir). They both passion kat photography. Kehulur-kehilir ngan camera diorang. Lens jangan cite la, ada yang besar tangan manusia. So, nak dijadikan cerita Annas ni first time I met middle of this year. Dier buat photoshoot Project X (free hair & muslimah) kat The Scope Studio (family business) located di Desa Pandan. That was the first time The Scope Studio housing more than 40 people.

I sumpah tak kenal mamat ni, My sis told me dia orang johor, budak baik selalu tolong parents dier. Betul tak betul tanyala parents dier ye. hihi. Annas ni kalau snap gambar kat studio tu, bergolek sini, terbaring sana, dia plak yang macam posing lebih2.. tapi itu lah yang dinamakan professional tak gitu?

Kalau photography ni, of course la saya support my brother kan tapi after usha2 annas punya kerja, WOW! gempak sih. Sorry la I can't share Annas's works kat sini sbb copyrighted kan. Ada yang kejar I ngan parang kang. But please feel free to click here for his blog and here for his fanpage. Tengok la blog dier 'Makeup adalah ekspresi Fashion adalah Inspirasi Kamera adalah Luahan Hati'. Tak main kau Annas! Ayat power

So back to our business. Kenapa saya suka Annas Easkey? secara kasarnya masterpiece Annas la ye. Saya ada 3 je solid reasons (kalau nak kira points kat atas2 tadi pon boleh :P), reasons ni smua pasal karya Annas ye. Personal, tuan punya badan lagi tau

I've read few award winning photographers' blogs and of course the best the only Nigel Baker kan. No one can deny his talent and creativity in his pieces. Just imagine how he can turn a junk yard to be a great scenery for his snaps?

Therefore, technically, a good photo is first able to caught peoples' eyes. Yes betul beauty is subjective. A good photographer can change an ugly thing to become great in the eyes. Tak percaya? ok, let see tgk gambar snapped by Annas ni, then you tell me, does it catch your eyes? click here. Cuba tgk scenery belakang macam kat kawasan kubur lama je kan, lumut sini sana but a good photo tells story. First it caught your eye then it tells you story. With that, baju cantik ke make up meletops ker smua help to structure the photo. So kira berjaya la gambar ini since it caught my eyes and kubur tu dah jadi macam good port untuk photoshooting

Then, lighting, kalau outdoor fine, nature lighting but what if indoor photos? click here. look at the shadow. Wow meletops. Nak cite pasal lighting color contrast la apa la I tak pandai, but that tall shadow behind tu gave a humongous impact to the picture. Ni Annas dah baring2 la kot atas floor tu amik gambar.

Last sekali, editing. Annas part editing mmg penyabar la. Passion makes everything possible. Paling best editing yang buat macam 3D pictures tu. Wacaya sama lu la. click here kalau nak tgk album 3D Annas.

Ahhh dah la tu sibuk nak puji2 Annas ni. I rasa dah buleh muntah darah dah dier baca blog yang duk puji2 dier. Nak tunggu Annas buat project photoshoot model ngan binatang/inserts pulak (macam ANTM tu la). Mana tau blh panggil dier Nigel Baker Malaysia. Sewa2 la The Scope lagi ye Annas hihi

bye smua. thanks for reading :)